Embracing the Journey: Navigating Truth and Self-Worth with the Fool

Who is the Fool to me? He is the point in the middle of the infinity symbol where the lines intersect. He is the end at a new beginning. With the sun at his back, he heads into shadow and the unknown. He travels light. We hope to carry the lessons we’ve learned on other journeys, but only time and facing the journey will tell. We are always accompanied by our animal self, barking at us with old stories that we will have to let go of if we are to move forward. I imagine upright he is taking the leap forward with intention. And I imagine in reverse, he is just tripping into it. A journey with no clear path or intention might be more challenging and uncomfortable. Startling and disorienting. He has no idea what is ahead. The Fool upright has been through a journey like this before. He is more prepared for what is ahead.

Today I asked for two cards to guide me on this journey. One for the Subconscious mind and one for the Conscious mind. I chose the King of Swords for the Conscious Mind and the Eight of Pentacles (Reversed) for the Subconscious Mind. My immediate reading was that my intent is knowledge. I am clear on my intent and am ready to head forth to find the truth. But my subconscious is where I need to do more work. I’m ignoring it. I wonder if this goes back to not meditating. Not taking time for stillness to really let the messages come through or sink in. Or maybe the lack of care to my body is disrupting my ability to reach my subconscious effectively.

So as a whole, the reading tells me I know this journey. I’ve been here before. I have my knowledge and I’m embarking willingly. I seek truth and clarity, but underneath I am faltering. I am not taking the care I need to for success. I need to do better in finding stillness. And that might mean better care of myself. Attention to my self-esteem and self-worth. Is this journey to validate myself or is this a journey I take knowing my own worth? I think it has to be the latter if I’m going to truly be successful and find the truth I’m looking for.